Here’s the rest of the story of my competition…..while I would love to write a heroic tale of triumph after a crushing defeat that’s not what happened. I took 3 weeks after my last competition and lost additional weight. I cut out carbs, did hours of cardio even sat in the sauna 3 times a week in order to acheive the look I was going for on stage. However, for the judges it wasn’t enough. Not sure what piece of the puzzle was missing but it happened again. No call out, stood on the blue line with the prettiest smile on my face all the while the judges kept overlooking me like as if I wasn’t even standing there. Like I hadn’t sacrificed, poured my heart and soul into this competition and had been planning for this competition for an entire year. I wanted to win for so many reasons but the main was for my son. He was the one who encouraged me to keep competing even though I hadn’t placed at my last competition. He told he to keep going even though some people thought I wasn’t very good at it. I wanted to bring home a trophy for him, to show him that with hard work and perseverance, you get knocked down but you get up again and you get rewarded. Not the case. Sometimes you get knocked down, you get up again, only to get knocked down again. But that’s life, right? Life isn’t fair. We don’t always get the respect we deserve. Which would explain why so many people give up on their dreams. Why so many people allow the negativity of others to influence their decisions for themselves. As heart breaking as it was for me to be overlooked, and disrespected by the judges, once again after all my hard work, what is more heart breaking for me is the thought of others giving up, giving in, and throwing in the towel on their dreams, particularly my children. I once said that I didn’t care if I NEVER got the respect I felt I deserved, that it would all be worth it to me if by doing this my children saw my example and never gave up on their dreams. Well I guess now is my opportunity to back that up. Not sure when I’ll be competing again, but I will share when I do decide. For now, you can find me back in the gym doing my thing, and working out like crazy.
Stay crazy, healthy and happy. 🙂 Leanna